Monday, April 30, 2012

The End of a Chapter

Inhale No more being micro managed, discouraged because I don't open 19 bogus credit cards a week, no more pushing products I don't believe in, and no more pushy customer...I'm done. Saturday, April 28 was my last day at my retail job. I can honestly say I don't regret it. It's a breathe of fresh air like I lifted a huge weight of my shoulders...even typing about it now puts this dorky smile on my face. Exhale

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

A Stuffy Nosed College & Job Search

I'm sitting here in bed sick, body aching, burning through a roll of tissue(for my nose okay, we didn't have a box so I had to settle.) I am on the ultimate college/internship/job search, time is ticking and I need to make something move. Saturday is my last day at work and I haven't had progress in finding a new job or finding a school. I'm considering an internship right now but I'm also thinking about the money. I could possibly put my loans on hold until I land a new gig, but at this point I really don't know what to do or what I want to do. I really resent the fact that yes going to school may be my only option but hating that I would have to spend so much. I spent a lot on school already and it got me no where but retail and a huge back ache of a bill...Oh, What to do?

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

When It Seems That Even God is On Your Side :).... You Exhale

Mon April 16,2012

Tues April 17(From my year Devotional)

Psalm 37:5 Amplified Bible (AMP)
Commit your way to the Lord [roll and repose each care of your load on Him]; trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident) also in Him and He will bring it to pass.

God is so real :) And so sweet reassuring me that it will be ok

Killing Doubt & Famous Failures

The reactions I've gotten since news has spread about my quitting has been mixed. I don't blame anyone for thinking me crazy but I have realized some things.

1. I'm still young: It's better to make my mistakes now and learn from my leaps and failures. (Plus I still live at home my responsibility as of today is school loans and train fare)

2. Some of the most influential people that are remembered today took risks and chances and even failed a couple times.

I've chewed over my doubts and fears and yes to be worried is rational but, the consequence of regret because of chances that I didn't take will be much stronger than if I play it safe.


Monday, April 16, 2012


All this morning I spent time setting up and promoting NoPlanB_NYC , after I was worn out of that I got to crafting a bunch of poly earrings and necklaces which are almost ready to go out(I’m going to have my sister take them for a quality test run). I think I’m freaking out way too early in the process of leaving my job because as I sit here trying to make something successful overnight(Which doesn’t happen) I’m realizing none of this will be easy without a steady flow of income. My motivation is good but I need my net and I need to figure out what it is I’m going to do about it moving forward.

I saw this video with song writer David Foster sometime last week before I quit my job something he said has been stuck in my head along with the realization of how vital money is to life: “Save your money. If you make a dollar call it 50 cents because the other half belongs to the government”
True, True, True…


If you follow my other blog ThoughtBubble I had a list of 10 things I wanted to do in 2012. These are totally attainable things that I just haven’t targeted all my energy towards. I think this piece of advice is very important I hear it every from every one. Even the Bible makes this clear
“If you have a vision, write it down.” Write down your goals and make them a focus, it’s easiest to do them one at a time (so I’ve heard)

10 things to accomplish in 2012 (from my other blog)

1.Sponsor a Child
2.Become a Volunteer
3.Get a better paying job
4.Get better at guitar
5 Write songs for an album
6.Record an album
7.Open a savings account
8.Walk for Breast Cancer
9.Be in a play
10. Figure out what to do about Education (back to school?)

#10 For realzies, getting back to school and finishing my degree is so plastered in my mind right now it’s making me sick. Get it done while I’m young. I’m thinking Queens College since the school also has music programs. This time I'll do it right working retail has not only made me miss it but has made me want to over excel at it.

Ok I think I’m done for the night I have to head off to bed now. I’ve got to go face my final days tomorrow. Peace


Sound off: In what ways are you investing into your future?


SATURDAY APRIL 14, 2012 I quit! I put in my two week notice at my part-time retail job. I had enough...just one short day after...I've been on a roller coaster ride of emotions, of fear, than reassurance, than back to fear again. The purpose of this blog to document my journey, failures and success being unemployed in New York....DON'T QUIT YOUR JOB WITHOUT A SAFETY NET...haha which is exactly what I've done.

This Sunday and Monday I've pretty much set out to find a way to make a source of income and figure out my next steps from here. I have been resume bombing, emailing, applying to temp agencies and whoring my freelance skills out on craigslist(why is it called "Craigs" list....Who's Craig anyway?)
Somewhere during this around 2 in the morning today I started to get that "OMG what did I do feeling" this is where Moooron sets in. So I did like any natural born human being would do and I set out to a Google search. My words were something like "I quit my job with nothing lined up" In this I found my motivators...

Life Without Pants:

which led me too

The Middle Finger Project:
finally here

These sites have motivated me to try. If I try what's the worst that could happen? I fail and have to end up in retail again. At least I got it out of my system...If I really want it, I will try till I win. Though I don't recommend just quitting, I don't and won’t regret my choice. I was barely making anything before so what's it to me now? Luckily I have a supportive family motivating me. I do feel a little bit like a quitter but time was moving way too fast working there. I spent all this time just being comfortable at this place wasting my precious time for's time to sink or swim. At least if I make pennies now hopefully it'll be in doing what I love.

Thanks for reading. I hope you continue to come back whoever you are...Maybe you're in the same boat. In that case it's awesome that we could do this together :)



P.S.-This is what I do

Graphic Design/Illustration/Arts and Crafts :D

The Singing the songwriting and the covers

Books That Motivate: