Crazy Love & Faith

It's been a pretty busy week and, a bit emotionally hectic for the past two weeks. I'm grateful that it's finally starting to feel like Spring after what feels like the longest winter ever here in New York. I'm finding it more and more necessary to hold onto my faith. It can be hard when I feel like I'm not getting what I want or where I need to be in life. It feels like all these road blocks keep popping up that stop me in my tracks to freedom... I know I can't accept resignation, but sometimes it really seems easier to accept where I am, being as far as I'll go...I've been feeling a little emotional the past two days and I've been in need of spiritual guidance. It's difficult when I feel like I'm going through life alone.

I finished reading Francis Chan's book; "Crazy Love". It felt like a motivational speech on being a "doer" for God as opposed to someone with just ideas or instead of being another Christian who just sits in the church pews agreeing with a message I don't walk. Since reading Crazy Love and reading my Bible more I've been filled with so many ideas but I'm also met with hesitation in follow through.  I'm being inspired creatively even at work. I highly recommend this to anyone who has ever been at church and wondered if being a Christian is supposed to mean more than church on Sunday.

The Humans

Good afternoon Lovelies!

Today I bring you my "review" or gushing about a book called "The Humans by Matt Haig". What would you do if you were an alien sent to Earth from another planet? A planet of perfection and logic. No emotion. Your mission on Earth is to rid the planet of crucial mathematical advancement. Would you have the ability to kill? To cheat and to lie? If you were sent here to stop the humans from hurting themselves and others could you do it ?


 This book is a light but necessary read. The alien character in this story captures so beautifully what it means to be human in a dark and seemingly messed up world. He finds beauty in the things we take for granted (peanut butter sandwiches). For him it's all new. The alien comes from a planet where he's been taught to live by logic only and math. The planet which he comes from there is no hurt, or greed, or selfishness only perfection. He was taught that here on Earth is the exact opposite to them we're brutal barbarians with no conscience.

What is perfection really? What is logic? Does something being "logical" always make it right? There are many questions in this book that the alien goes through and learns for himself the point of being human. I  don't want to spoil the story I rate the book 4 out of 5 stars on goodreads. This book is a beautiful reflection of what a gift out lives are. A reminder of everything Good that we are as humans.

 (Had to add this cover as well. So beautiful.)

PS-I've found myself pausing and reflecting at certain point in story. Spoiler alert: The alien delves into poetry at one point and he loves Emily Dickson! I love it!

PSS- If you're a fan of qoutables this book has many.

"Do not fall for categories. Everyone is everything. Every ingredient inside a star is in you" 

Life Happens or You Happen

Hello!

So I didn't follow through with my post plan but I'm here now :) I've had an emotional couple of weeks and I could really use community right now. One week ago we took my 15 year old dog, Baby, to the vet. She was really old and not in great shape when we took her. Unfortunately my family and I had to make the decision to  put her down that day. My heart is broken. Not a lot of people can understand the connection between a girl and her dog but I grew up with mine. She accepted me quirks and all. I loved and cared for her in return. I've been on this roller coaster from deep sadness to happy highs.

Through this negative experience a creativity has been sparked. I've been writing songs and creating art but I still have the issue of....I'm creating but I'm not sharing. Part of me feels like I'm fighting against my own success.There's this voice telling me that what I'm creating is no good. It wants to crush any sort of productivity I have and it's confusing. I don't know if 25 feels like this big confusing mess to everyone or if it's just me. I feel like I should be in a different place but I'm not and I feel like what if I'm waiting my entire life for that light bulb moment that will never happen....

I'm not sure where to go from here or what to do. I don't have my own space so it's not exactly the best space I have here for creating...But than maybe that's an excuse. I don't know.